Something unbelievable happened...

School bells were ringing.
It was another day of pain and confusion rising inside of me. I thought it might be good to clear my mind so I went out in the schoolgarden, trying to collect my emotions together again.
I had been standing still for 15 minutes when I realized it was raining. Actually, I had even not noticed the raindrops on the bench, when I sat down on it.
During that time there were no feelings I would not hold inside - not just how all my day had been going completely wrong, but how I had given up upon everything.
I felt as if I never would be able to do anything worth doing; I looked in the sky to see if the Nature had heard my wondering thoughts... I didn't know why, but when I had been talking to the sky, something unbelievable happened!
I looked at one particular place in the grass and there was a little, very tiny four-leaved clover. I was wondering from where this small clover came from? If I were searching for it, I could not find it.
That moment will always be a mystery, but one thing I do know now - it was a gift which has been sent by Nature, to prove me I deserve happiness.
Suddenly the trees opened their arms widely, saying I am never alone and when I was leaving the garden I found the rain had stopped.

Melt myself away, as life is turning cold

" Melt myself away, as life is turning cold,
Younger is my corpse than desperate heart forlorn, -
Not the wasted years, but tears do make me old,
In the restless blaze I've found myself unborn!
Generous, my love! With pain it's come to bless!
Haven't I been ill? Wounds start me to posses!
Talking with the sky for years to hear me pray,
Still I sob and shout, still the pain increases,
Knelling bells at night, no sunlights through the day,
Yet I bleed inside, Yet I hold diseases!
Farewell to my love! Am I to go allowed?
Anywhere but here my life shall be more proud!
To die, to disappear! To feed my yearning mouth,
Ears to fill with voice, in heart to bring the health!
Desperately I'll run, from east, west, north to south
And search for a place where stars create the richest wealth.
Nature, oh, the Queen! Let me join the rain,
Gain me once for all and wounds will try to drain!
Ending now has come, last breath may touch Thy ear, -
Lisbon will remain... my night sky fated Dear!"

* A piece of my first English dialogue story in verse.
The songs will be published shortly and whole dialogue story as well.